A New Beginning For Me

The beginning of a new journey for me.

I have started on a new journey for myself. A journey to better my health. In the past I have always wanted to lose weight only for the people around me. I wanted to do it for people to accept me better, to think I'm worthy of friendship or a boyfriend, and to hope I could be seen as beautiful. I have finally reached a point in my life where I am happy with myself as a person, and with the people I have in my life. I have realized that my weight and outside appearance is not the reason why I should or should not be accepted. If a person can not accept me for who I am as a whole, then they deserve my effort.

My journey consists of becoming a better me physically. I have tried this in the past, what is going to make the difference this time is that I am doing this for myself, and no one else. I have decided I need to do this to be happy with my body, to be proud of how I look, and to be able to walk around confidently knowing I reached a big goal I have set for myself. Although feeling confident in the way I look is a huge part of this, I need to do this because of health reasons, too. While my health problems are not due to my weight, eating healthier and making a lifestyle change will certainly improve the circumstances.

Why am I writing this and sharing it? 

Because. 

I need to write this down and document the beginning of this journey. I need to hold myself accountable and show the world that I can do this. I need to have this written down to help encourage me to not give up. While I may have weeks where I do not lost the pounds I had hoped for, I need to remember that it may not always be about the number on the scale. With incorporating exercise, I will gain muscle. There will be weeks where my weight might even increase, but I need to remember to notice the way my body is still transforming, and becoming more fit.

I have done this before and lost weight, but I did not keep on going like I should have. I gave up on myself because I didn't have the right tools, and encouragement I needed.

This time is different. Mark my words. I acknowledge I will not reach my goal in a week, or a month. But I promise myself to not give up until I have reached my goal, and I am healthy, and fit. 

Here's to a new journey. A new me. A better me.